I hope you’re doing okay, as much as you can. I have a similar situation, but I’d rather address yours first. That’s horrible, honestly. Not only did he not tell you about his cheating, but he kept the child a secret. That’s not right. I can’t even imagine, considering he not only lied about his cheating, but the outcome as well. I don’t understand why people don’t care about repercussions. Did no one pay attention in sex ed? Lol. (Just to lighten the horrible situation.)
How far away do you two live from her? How often do you go over, even if you’re outside in the car? That’s absolutely disgusting to me; that you’re wanting to create a life out of your love for your husband, and he created a life with someone else. How do you feel about the b****? How do you feel about the child? By “accepting the child”, how do you really feel?
I honestly have never had so much hate and disgust for another human in my entire life (the b****). I feel like such an ugly and horrible person for feeling this way. Have you seen him with the baby yet? Does your family know? Does his?
Sorry for all of the questions. I just want to vent too, and with our unfortunate similarities of our lives, I wish I had someone to talk to about my unfortunate situation as well..
Best wishes XX